We had the kids’ big ski race this weekend. More on that tomorrow. Knut had one of his big races too. 58km. He’s pretty beat right now. Once again, there’s suitcases and dirty laundry and wet swimsuits all over the house and zero food in the fridge this morning. It’s hard to know where to begin.
Adults and kids alike are grumpy. I’ve forgotten so many things this last week. All the balls I’m juggling are falling here and there. I completely forgot to bring Silje to piano lessons, I lost my material for the class I teach at the homeschool co-op (it’s found now!) but I had to wing it based off of my outline notes. I can’t find my glasses. They’ve been lost for about a week now. I hate putting contacts in my eyes first thing in the morning. Last week I got a call from a friend asking if our playdate for that day was still on, and she needed directions to my house again. I was still in my pajamas, and couldn’t even remember the conversation that she was coming over.
So I told her of course it was still on, and don’t mind the mess. Our conversation when she was here was the most uplifting of my week. She’s one of those friends that when you unload a burden, she takes hold of your hands and prays for you right there. I wish she could be cloned for everyone.
I could focus on all the things I’m doing right, instead of all the things I’m doing so badly right now. That’s my human reaction. It’s entirely not a terrible one, but I usually don’t believe myself. Those things I’m doing wrong matter. Those balls I’m dropping all around represent promises broken, and people being neglected.
So instead, may I invite you to join with me to fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. We don’t need to just focus on the ways we are perfect, and try to ignore the ways we are imperfect. Jesus takes us whole. He makes us whole. That’s the sermon I’m preaching to myself this morning. Through all my faults, he never leaves me. Focusing on myself will always leave me depressed, but focusing on him reminds me of how deeply I am loved.
Sigh. Monday…here we go. I’m blessed.
elizabeth says
February 10, 2014 at 3:42 pmhang in there… God is with us!
Do you have any sort of calendar to put appointments in?
I use google calendar which also emails me reminders if I set it to do so…
It’s hard to keep it all strait… esp. when you are a Mom, it’s winter, you can’t find your glasses.
Will say a prayer for you!!
J and K Smith says
February 10, 2014 at 3:43 pmI needed this. Thank you. In the mess of a Monday morning, I am focused on myself and miserable. Working on focusing my eyes above.