Yarn Along

I’m still working on my “Norsk Cloak” as I’m now calling it.  I’m actually starting to see the end in sight, an I’m not sure how I feel about it.  I cannot wait to see it finished, but on the other hand, I have such a pile up of finished items already that need writing that I’m in no hurry to add to it.

I’ve gone further in Lord of the Rings.  Ingrid is still having a tough time getting to sleep with her newfound skill of leaving her bed whenever she feels like it.  It’s one bright side to her not sleeping well.  I just hafta sit in her room so she doesn’t climb out of her crib.  This is the only thing I can do then.

My schedule is sweeping me up, friends, and I’m not sure what to think about it.  I may sound discouraged, but in reality it’s just been a bad attitude.  I can’t do the things I want to do.  Our time at home I’m frantically trying to catch up on home things, and all these little pockets of time I could do “my” things are disappearing.  And yet, my family is thriving more.  My time at the YMCA while they are doing their activities there has been making me stronger, physically, and I haven’t felt stronger in a long, long time.  There have definitely been perks to this busy-ness.

It’s April now.  I had another knitting pattern I planned to have out by Easter, but I still can’t seem to get the sleeve caps right on it.  I don’t have any time to figure it out.  It’s on hold.  Everything is on hold.  I’m slowly realizing that I may not get a chance to get another pattern out until this Fall.  That shouldn’t bother me but it does.  I feel like my life is not my own right now, and I feel like I’m surrounded by people who would say “duh!” to that statement.  Nearly 11 years into this mom job, I can be pretty stubborn.

Most of all, I feel like this thing, this “knitting pattern” thing is holding this stress over my head that wouldn’t exist otherwise.  There is an incredible amount of good things going on in my life right now.  The problem is, is that I look at my schedule, and I wouldn’t change a thing…besides add more hours.

The weather around here has just been delightful.  Yesterday I took a walk through the garden, and found the strawberry heirloom popcorn I grew last year, but left in the garden because I had hit my yearly-garden-burnout, and corn keeps pretty good.  There were a small handful of cobs that were moldy, but for the most part all of it was still good.  The fine weather, and reminder of garden work ahead made me realize that these last few weeks have brought us out of the hibernation season (my favorite season of the year).  We are so desperately in need for this sun and fresh air.  We have chicks in the barn, seedlings under lights in the basement, a mommy cat with a bulging tummy of kittens and the chickens have returned to laying at full speed.  We are entering this life-giving growing season.

It’s such a fun season.

It’s just not a good sit by the fire and get “work” done season.  Well, at least not yet.  I’m probably going to continue to try to get my “knitting business” things done, and at the same time not let it rob me of joy when it doesn’t.  I’m not sure that’s the best of plans, but at this point, it’s all I got.